Monday, June 14, 2010

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead

(I think I made you up inside my head.)

We're all guilty of fantasizing, and often, we get so immersed in such fantasies that they eventually cloud how we think, act, and behave. And it consumes the very core of us. It seeps right inside as it takes over how we function.

The process and its very nature are unfathomable, immune even to the frugal efforts of the remnants of our rational side. We end up focusing so much on the what if's and the could/should/would have been's, forming additional imaginary scenarios; meanwhile, reality is being taken for granted.

Secretly, we wish the stars and planets would align in our favour. We hope and wish so much that we begin to rely merely on such unsteady attempts instead of pushing things into motion on our own.

I don't really know what I want.
But I do know what I don't want - to waste time waiting for something, someone that doesn't exist.